Tomorrow will be my three year anniversary of discovery.
Tomorrow will be my three year anniversary of discovery.
I have mixed feelings. I was so hoping this coming October 13th would come and go without it getting to me. But I don't think that will happen.
Tomorrow marks the three year anniversary of the day I found out about his affair. That small discovery took me down a road that later would reveal the world Narcissism and Psychopath, porn addiction and three other affairs. I never thought I would find myself divorced and starting over. We went through a 2 year separation, during that time I had hoped so badly that the things that I was discovering were not true. I am glad I gave the marriage at least 2 more years, I had waited for some great transformation to happen and of course it did not. I ended up finding out that I had been lied to in the most horrible way possible. I was conned into marrying a very sick individual.
I so hate the month of October, today I am missing my old life. How stupid is that? But I guess when I look back on the time before I found out about the affair I see myself happy. But then again time has made me forget some of the bad times. I must remember that "happiness" was just moments they never lasted long and then we would quickly go into this rut called "nothing good nothing bad happening, just surviving". So sad to think now that I thought that was happiness. Today I can't seem to stop my heart from missing those crumps of happiness! How pathetic! God I hope I feel better tomorrow or the next day.
I have come to far to let these current feelings bring me down. On October 31 this year it will be 1 year of NC.
Joy2me
I can relate
Our stories sound similar.
Our stories sound similar.
Thank you.
the same for me. it was like
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