Today was a good day

My paternal grandmother passed away recently after a stroke and a brief illness. It was a quiet, peaceful death in her own home. She didn't die in pain. It was in a sense triggering for me... because 14 years ago, my paternal grandfather died painfully from cancer. 14 years ago, the ex-Psych professor was berating and mocking me for grieving. Now, I am at peace. At work, my coworkers were understanding, supportive, compassionate. I came back to my apartment uplifted instead of beaten down. So instead of "War and Peace", it's just "Peace and Peace." I'll be going to a Christmas musical tonight at a church... that should be fun...

I'm so happy for you! I had a pretty good day today too. I went shopping for general supplies that I've procrastinated about doing, walked a long way with everything loaded in my back pack, did a wide circle to a few different shops, picked up some wine, bought a 5 foot 'Charlie Brown' tree, carried it back home, ordered in food, ate dinner, drank some wine, ate some dark chocolate and put the tree up. I've gotten as far as putting the lights on it, the rest of the decorations might have to wait until tomorrow - lol! I was also not so obsessed about exN and I only got teary eyed a few times with the Christmas triggers. I consider this a big improvement. Last year I didn't get a tree and didn't care about celebrating any of it I was so depressed. Today it felt good to do everything just for me and the tree is so pretty, even with only the lights. Having a bath and crawling into bed with a good book sounds like the perfect way to end a good day! Journey on...

Jen, so glad you had a good day, I hope each day gets better and better for you. Somedays I just wish I could invent a mind eraser and send it out to everyone who has had to deal with a narc or more than one narc, so that they could not remember ever loving or caring about that person. I no longer obsess the way I used to, but there are still days when I get so down on myself, knowing how much I loved the unlovable s.o.b. I know there is no such thing as a mind eraser, but it would be such a great thing for people who have dealt with these psychopaths, and they are psychopaths, the cruelty in which they bestow upon their victims is beyond comprehension, but there is one thing I know, they will get theirs, maybe not in this lifetime, but in the next, because life is short, but eternity is forever and I would hate to burn in hell as they will. Life for us has been hell, but we will reap the benefits eventually, and they will pay, unfortunately. sounds corny, but it is true, those without remorse can never find a place in heaven. but you, my friend, are already an angel, and I hope you know that.....i wish you the peace you had yesterday, every single day for the rest of your life...........xoxo Jaycee

It's sososososo amazing to hear that you're feeling good. You deserve to be happy!!!! You have helped me very very much. I wish we lived in the same country so we could hang out. lol

Wow, it helps me to take a breath, just to read it. You rock! Really. You're an inspiration. Hugs, Leah

Sounds like a perfect day to me!!! Good book, good food and lying in the bed...wahoo! Im in Day 3 of NC with the exNBF and I almost felt funny this morning not having my mind racing like crazy. I dont feel 100% but I feel better, baby steps.... Im going to buy my Christmas tree tonite and bake cookles....nesting as my mom calls it!

Congratulations! I enjoyed the humor in your post at the beginning, too. I cannot wait for the day that it will occur to me that I have barely thought of the "person" who brought me here. Way to go, Jen!!!!! You worked hard and you deserve this good day. You give me hope and inspiration. sincerely, (trying to stop) spinning