Today I'm pissed off!
Today I'm pissed off!
Last week was a weird one. I thought about the Narc more than I have in awhile but nothing near obsessing. It was just random thoughts that I pushed out of my head as quickly as I could. Today the thoughts of him are coming at me like bullets. I keep trying to push them out of my head but it's harder. I'm remembering more details now than I have before. Details about the things the new GF told me in her stupid email about how wonderful their lives are together and how good he is to her son and blah blah blah PUKE! Details about our relationship is coming back to me. Stuff I haven't thought about in a long time. Good stuff and bad stuff. My sister told me last night that I'm repressing memories and that is only going to be worse for me in the long run!!! She said I'm not dealing with all of this in a healthy way and I'm going to break soon if I don't deal with hit. (She doesn't even know half of what all has happened!) I don't want to think about it!!!!! I don't want to work through it! I just want to forget he ever existed! BUT I do not want it all to come back at once and end up in a mental hospital! I hate that man with every ounce of hate I have in my body! I hate that my life has come to THIS! INSANITY! Stupid dumbass NARC!
I've been reading a lot on the forums the past week because it helps me to remember how awful he really was but it also enrages me because so many women are hurting because of these psychos that are allowed to walk among the normal people taking what they want and treating people like doormats with NO punishment and no consequences! They just move on to the next victim and continue on with their sad pathetic excuse for a life that they don't even see as sad and pathetic!!!
I'm sorry I'm rambling. I have no idea what is wrong with me today. I'm raging mad!!! There is no revenge, no closure, no harsh words that effect them so it leaves us with all of this pent up rage and nowhere to put it!!!
Thanks for listening. I hope tomorrow will be better. I have to go back to work and see him after not having to do that for a week!!!! I'd rather eat dirt than go to work tomorrow!
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