Today I Feel Like A Failure
Today I Feel Like A Failure
I don't want to be going through my 2nd divorce. I feel like such a failure to have to have my whole life drug out in front of strangers. It just tears me to my core that the man I loved so much is not really there and never really was. I miss the little things - watching tv in the evenings together, curling up in bed, holding hands in the car.
I feel like a broken person who doesn't fit in anywhere. My emotions whirl a mile a minute some days and its all I can do to get through the weeks I don't have my baby girl with me. I avoid people like the plague because I can see right through them now...a "gift" I've never had before. It's a cool but scary gift to be given.
Today I got another flurry of court paperwork from stbxN. It's all financial stuff which seems to be all he cares about. I'd give him every last fucking thing I own if he'd just drop the custody case and go the fuck away.
The kids and I moved over the weekend with the help of some wonderful people from church. It is a new beginning for us and I have been very excited for that. But just now, I don't feel so excited. I just feel like a loser who gave her heart away to the first asshole who seemed interested.
Thank You All
Greengirl, this message will give you another perspective
A failure?
I'm miss the little things
Please dont feel that way you
You only would have failed