Time will tell who will have the last laugh

I`m tired of so called old friends, who keep asking me "when are you going to be alive".."are you alive yet", in this period I`m passing through they are annoying.

One of them, is actually in a "relationship" with ex N`s best mate, guess, another N! I was expecting more from her, but what can I say, she`s riding the high now, again..she thinks "she`s got him", and we all know what that means ( the guy is officially in "relationship" with OW ) and hoovering her. She is only happy and talkative to me and the world, only when he comes into picture..and it`s wrong, there`s no one who could know this better than myself. He, "the master" makes you "alive" and "dead" at his will..like a puppet

I distanced myself from these people, because I`ve been trying to find my peace..and they kept reminding me of ex N, whether they consciously intended it or not. And I grew tired of saying the same old, same old story to them, because even now, after all this time, they still don`t swallow the whole picture, and the ways my life has been affected by N, by my family and N mother, N cousin, N grandma, and the list might go on and on..

I restricted my life stories from these people, because they wouldn`t understand anyway. They view me as that girl who probably had an undying obsession with N..NOT! If I imagined everything, what the hell do my favourite music, movies, tastes, and sometimes even phrases (!!) do in his profile??..

But whatever, I don`t even bother to explain anything about my life to them..because it does not matter. What it DOES matter, is that I`m in my 1 week reinitiated NC, and trying to do stuff for myself. I`ve started cooking some stuff (and surprisingly went out pretty well :-) or simply watch favourite movies, breathe fresh air..away from anything N`ish.

As I`m talking, my friend and OW are currently on the spin and rollercoaster, because of ex N`s friend, whom I partially blocked by the way :-) when I see these girls, hardly trying, changing states from anger, to infatuation, missing, to hate and then repeat, from day to night, I AM GLAD. I AM GLAD for being out, for blocking N and his N friend..I am glad I`m NOT SPINNING! from second to second..

I can only pray for them to get out of there, while they still can..I told in my profile as a status "Don`t take any shit!", but they are probably too busy riding "the wave" to pay attention to any red flags. I know that because I see myself in these girls..

And we all know how this scenery is going to end, in tears, for them.

But enough of that, time to take care of myself, and of people who really matter :-) Do whatever you can, and stay NC, as an advice to anyone who`s doubting it right now! :-)

I am like a baby learning how to walk, moving slowly, but I know I am moving forward.