Time has been my friend - I'm back to me :)

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#1 Feb 5 - 5AM
Lovely1
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Time has been my friend - I'm back to me :)

Nearly 8 months out, I truly feel that I've reached Step 6. Time has been my healer. It started happening @ 4 months but not until now ( this week) do I truly feel that I have entered a near recovery period. I was with narc for about 22 months.

I walk to work and I'm happy. I go out and I'm content. I don't feel that inner sadness anymore of something I lost because I've found the old me again. I looked at a photo the other day and there was just indifference. A person in a picture. That is all he represents.

It helps that I have made a couple of new friends who are types of ppl I needed around. Genuine people. And I saw an ex bf whilst out at a bar and a wave of nostalgia hit me. I remembered our good rship before I left the rship ( because I was young and silly) and recalled who I was back then. This recognition of my true self propelled me forward so fast that I know I have made real ground work.

No bf thus far, no real dating and it's probably exactly what I needed. When I do meet someone new, I'll be a bigger and better person. I now know what I want & deserve.

Even though narc lives not far from me, he is just somebody I used to know. Not somebody I shared anything special with. My emotional connection to that part has now been severed and it is the best way for me to continue on my journey forward.

I could not be happier. 8 months ago I was stuck in a fog of deceit, anxiety and emotional pain. Today I come out with strength, determination and a new lease on life.

Phew! Finally made it :-)

This site has been the best recovery spot I could have ever asked for.

Feb 6 - 5PM
leslieisback
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Congratulations! Thank you!

Feb 6 - 2PM
Journey
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So happy for you! Thanks for

Journey on...

Feb 5 - 11AM
spinning
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Love it, Lovely1,

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Feb 5 - 9AM
Newdawn
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Lovely1

Feb 5 - 7AM
Hunter
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Wahooooo... Keep this Buzz

Feb 5 - 7AM
Janie53
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Lovely1

Feb 5 - 7AM
Garden
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This is so good to share with

Feb 5 - 11AM (Reply to #2)
moving on finally
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Thanks for the inspiration!