For those who have ex's...imagine what life would be like if you were still together
For those who have ex's...imagine what life would be like if you were still together
Frightening, no? lol
I have had my ups and downs throughout this whole ordeal. First, as most of you know--I did the breaking up. I am proud of this fact. lol I showed him that I wasn't afraid of saying goodbye to something abusive--him. That said, even when you do the breaking up, you still feel discarded, sad...you still have to go through the healing process as if they were the ones to walk out.
I was doing really well with everything...because I stopped going onto that website. Then, he was banned. I thought--perfect. I started going back onto that website. And...it hit me, that the site just is a constant reminder of him. Of us. Of what was...and frankly, what NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN.
So, I'm done with it. I have to find the courage to just stay away from it for 21 days. This time, not SAY 21 days, and do 7. But really stay away from it for 21 days, and reassess how I feel about it when 21 days is up. Experts say that it takes 21 days to kick a habit...hoping they're right.
But, I got to thinking. What would it be like if I were STILL with him. It's been nearly two months now, since we broke up. Imagine being with him all this time. UGH. I can't! The thought is scary to me. I think he would have become absolutely beyond horrible to me. ESPECIALLY since I broke up with him, and he would have wanted to make my life hell. I remember we got back together after we broke up for 24 hours, and he couldn't be normal for that long.
So, I thought I'd post this. Imagine yourself back with your ex. When you're thinking of breaking NC. Or mulling around in your mind about him/her. Think back to how they TRULY WERE. Not the fan fare, and sweet nothings they whispered into your ear in the beginning. But, think about the horrible acts they did...the horrible things they said.
I also thought today of how he told me he loved me after THREE WEEKS. How he referred to me as 'wife' this and that. And I got this aching feeling in my stomach. He probably has said I love you to countless women...not just those he married...after a few weeks. For he knows not what love truly is.
But, think about that ladies and gents. If you were back with your ex's...what would that look like? I guarantee...it would look grim. Be thankful you're out of the chaos, pain, and turmoil these people bring with them.
Thanks for listening, and being here for me. {{hugs}}
lobo
Without a doubt, I would be
Isn't that so sad, when we
I dreamt a dream
yes, susan...so true!! I pray
I had a dream about the narc
I had a dream about narc last night, too!
D40
Thankyou for this! Let's see
littleone
Little one!! Good work!!!
spinning
My god not-spinning, how
I'm so glad! Sometimes, it
I would still be a yo yo
my many "ailments"
Believe in yourself!
Terri
If we were still together I'd
passionate
If we were still together
sara
The thought of this is enough
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
mystwoman
Thanks Deidre. I am SO
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
This is an important exercise
susan!
Sometimes God says ENOUGH!!!
susan
"He sounds like a fictional character"
Pulp fiction
I really...
hryan