The things "super ego NARC" play their projection games

Im married to this man for 3 years.infact just 3 years 4 days ago. I am on this site and im very thankful to be here,as i am beginning to understand this con man more fully..I am reading,reading,researching and trying to learn more about this PD. I havent heard about this before now would i be thinking to research about NPD before i got hooked with Mr." NARC",coz if i did omg i would never marry this man.buy hey lily too late to be crying for spilled milk. I have to step up and be strong. I have always been a strong person,besides the fact that my foster mom has also been abusive with me from childhood until my adulthood which is sad,and as i was thinking it seems like it became a pattern,i married a man with NPD..but anyway..all of the things ive read on books and online exactly fits him,..If i could stick a big note in his forehead and mark it with bold letters "I AM A NARCISSIST" OR IM MR. NARCISSISTIC" GOSH i would so everybody would know who the hell he really is.. At first he was my knight of shinning armour,infact he even told me that he was my only hope and he was saving me from my moms abusive treatment on me..DINGDONG!!!red flags!!but i was too carried away never thought about it.infact i was fooled bigtime..i could not forget red flags lining up.when he was getting ready to go to the gym and my 2 yrs old came in the room eating a corn on the cob,when accidentally drop the corn infront of him while he was doing his shoe lace..jesus christ i couldnt believe it.he slapped my boy in the face hard to the point where it got swollen..i was in total shock.!!!he got mad because he drop the corn on his shoe.imagine..I should have listened to myself..but i was being stubborn.carried away by my emotions...a couple of times he was abusive to my son..until i got here in the states where the abuse started..first name calling ,,screaming at you mimicking you,then where is that romantic,loving caring also damn religious man i met ...I was in total shock,almost to the point of denial..I even have gotten to the point where i believed that im the crazy one..its because of me things went sour..at first i kept everything to myself coz i felt stupid for putting up with his bullshit. everything was blamed to me .nonsense even his schooling when he failed twice it was all blamed to me,his N=rage was because of me..not until he started being abusive.is when i called my relative just for an outlet of my depression.that is when I discovered he was Narcissistic.NPD..NPD..that was horrifying..cant imagine that man whom you thought loved you isnt really in love with you..he was very abusive to me..shove my on the wall.pull my hair,bang my head on the wall.slam pillows on my head,push me on the bed,and crazy enough to hit me even when i was pregnant.3 wks..and then 3 mos.preg.that really was it..im done...but then he would go back to romantic mode..playing with your emotions....jesus help kill these idiots...now its been 7 mos of research and joining forums.i need to let it out with people,with women who can relate...latest happenings,he was upset just because he thought im being stubborn..im not listening to his ways,,,what a control freak...that he grab my hair as i walked by him,i went to my sons room coz my !yr.old woke up and i have to nurse him back to sleep,that he again grab my hair and banged my head on the wall,telling me "im done!im done!!!" he said if i wanted the marriage to work it would be all up to my end. coz for him he is done."i was so heartbroken felt so stupid infact super stupid that allowed myself to be treated that way..i felt so low..i have no family here,so i have no choice but cry it out....he never felt no remorse,dont know how to say sorry infact called me weak for crying and storm off and said i need a stronger woman.one who is not weak,one who is understanding ,someone who is smart..who wouldnt be depressed..!!!i felt like a complete idiot...the emotional abuse is crazy the mental abuse is crazier,the verbal abuse is more crazier but the physical abuse is whats making me join this site for stregnth,not stregnth to endure it but to plan my exit.i have two lovely boys.i have to be strong for them..I said to myself it needs time to get my wings ready.Ive got goals to meet.it has to be a long plan i dont want to go out there and have myself and my boys left hanging..lately projection wise..I cant believe it he would act as if nothing happened.when i confront him about his physical abuse first he told me it was my fault he did that ,it was because of me that he turned that route"hitting me",putting all his weight on my pregnant belly.."it hurts just writing this down. but i need to share and hear more from others who can relate to make me wake up even more..!!!then he denied it was physical abuse..he said it wasnt..then he told me i deserved to be abused that way for my behavior...damn why did the god i believe in gave me this monster?!!!and just recently he told me you are being abusive to me..!! i was like ..wtf!!!! what was he thinking..then i stumbbled on the word projection.now i realize he was projecting himself what a pure asshole...!!! ladies if we are here voicing it out!! amen for that ..YOU ARE A STRONG WOMAN..NEVER LET ANYONE CALL YOU WEAK.CHILDBIRTH ALONE IS A STRONG PROOF OF HOW FIERCE AND STRONG OUR NATURE IS...INFACT WE ARE BETTER THAN THESE BASTARDOSSSS......FIGHT.COZ I AM..HE WAS INSULTED WHEN I BLOCKED HIM ON MY FACEBOOK...!!!.IT FEELS GOOD