.....tell your story....change the world..

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#1 Jun 18 - 1PM
fallingfoward
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.....tell your story....change the world..

That is a quote from Brene Brown.....

and that is what this site has done for me.

Hello, for those of you that remember me.....hello.... for all the newbies.....wish you the best on your journey.

I am doing so well...it has been a long journey...writing on the site....reading....counseling...trying meds(didn't work for me) and journaling....taking long walks .....learning self-care..... Goldie sessions...talking to the friends on this site...on and on...

But it has been a journey worth taking....well worth it....

For the newbies, my narc led a double life, lying about everything, drug addict, thief, lied about having cancer, had two places where he lived, one where he saw me and the other one the ow and so many more issues. He was a professional man who conned his way into my life and almost destroyed my soul.

This site was my anchor,
I remember days just lying in bed, crying and staying on this site almost 24 hours....thinking that this pain would never go away.....this pain that crept in began to undercover issues from my childhood.

Now I am about a 10 months of NC. I am doing so much better.

My narc called my landlord a few weeks ago, to give her the message to call him. I called one of the ladies from this site, to get my emotions back in place. He owes me $5000, and for a minute I thought could I get this money back. LOl, stupid thought, my friend reminding me about the games he played. I reread my journals from that time and then it happen.....

All that hard work paid off, no cd, no tears, no crazy longing to talk to him, no more chances for him....

I was fine, after a few hours....amazing
It feels so good......

I had the Victory!!!Touchdown!!!!Happy Dance!!!!!Butterflies flying around me!!!! Walking in Clouds!!!!!

I made it through, I am on the other side!!!!

I talk about my experience freely with other women, sharing about this site, and books I've read. Hoping to help at least someone who is in this situation.

He no longer clouds my mind, I don't really think to much about him at all, or even care to know if karma gets him back.

I am working steady now, making decent money again. So I am back on the site.

Thanks to all of you who help me walked through all this. An amazing journey that led me to the center of my soul.

Much love
Falling forward

Jun 18 - 3PM
Janie53
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ff

Jun 19 - 12AM (Reply to #9)
fallingfoward
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Thank you jamie 53

Jun 18 - 2PM
talktothehand
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FallingForward

Jun 19 - 12AM (Reply to #7)
fallingfoward
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Talktothehand...

Jun 18 - 2PM
Used
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fallingforward

Jun 19 - 12AM (Reply to #5)
fallingfoward
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Thanks Used....

Jun 19 - 12AM (Reply to #4)
fallingfoward
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Thanks Used....

Jun 18 - 2PM
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So great to have you

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Jun 18 - 2PM (Reply to #2)
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