Taught me right from wrong, that's a lot to learn.... What can I give you in return?

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#1 Jan 27 - 1AM
Klarisa
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Taught me right from wrong, that's a lot to learn.... What can I give you in return?

To Sir, with Love,
Yes, in Texas we say Sir and Mam. We say thank you and excuse me, by habit, yet a habit borne and practiced with sincerity. men open doors for ladies, because it shows respect and honor, and where I come from it is right and we do right by people. You know this, and you intentionally disregard these real acts of kindness and respect. You purposefully do shit because you are shit. You lie, cheat, betray, complain, rage, put me and just about everyone down, give ST, evil looks, power over, talk but don't follow through, because that's what disordered narcs do. You sting because thats what scorpions do. I find it humorously ironic that you got stung by a scorpion at my place in the hill country! And bit by a centipede! in the same day, that sir, is poetic justice. I have had that house for over 10 years, hundreds of invited guests and many uninvited critters including scorpions. Not one person has every been stung, ever, But you. Fucking figures! And fucking funny,
This is my goodbye to you and I hope it stings like a scorpion unleashing it's poison from Itself into you. I give you back your poison. You're a big man,sir. You will survive. You will recover. But you will never forget the sting. No one does. Of that I am sure. And I'm happy to give you a basis of a drama filled tale to share about what I really did. Everyone knows it hurts. Tell your story, look for pity , but in Texas, sir, you'll be called a dumb ass. You Don't play with venom.
I have known what you are for sometime. I fell quickly and deeply for you. I married you! A year after being left by my husband of 15 years. I get it. I got it then. I just felt blessed. I still do, but
not by you but by the lessons I learned while with you. I divorced you swiftly. I was still strong.I
knew you were crazy and mean and bad for my life. So divorce was right and good. I felt stupid,duped and quite frankly ashamed for my choice to marry you and mortified that I needed to admit my stupidity,especially after my divorce where I was left for a Facebook old HS GF. then something happened. I missed you. What I understand now were a million hoovers, I believed because it's what I do. I trusted, agreed to compromise, I believed your words.. Of course,your words can be beautiful, poetic, alluring and seductive. But your actions speak your truth,and your
words speak your lies.
I've wanted to end it so many times and did. But they weren't ever real. they were expressions of
my anger, disappointment, desire for change leading to healing and success. Well, Sir,those things I still desire, just not with you. I want nothing with you, from you or about you. I want me
again,back to my life. I am ready to go, and I am happy and I am sure of it. I am excited about it.
I understand it will not be a linear path of healing, there will be steps forward and times of hurt and pain. Yeah, I am ready for it. I Welcome it. I want and need it and have always pursued
honorable, honest and real. Until I met you. Well I am stinging you, I am showing I am strong, should be respected and feared by arrogant dumb asses. Like a scorpion I will be around for a very long time.it is next to impossible to kill me. I am a survivor. You will cry in pain and complain and curse the sting. bur you fucked with something that you have not encountered. Do you know scorpions can play dead. Emphasis on play. Play over. See how fast I am, determined and
unafraid. Stay away. You don't stand a chance. Get away,this is my house, my town, my state, my country, My Life, you have just been visiting and now are told to get out. Go away. My cleaning people are coming to disinfect and take out the trash.
This is my Goodbye. Perhaps it was too kind. So I must add one more thing: Fuck Off and whack off and piss off... Even get off... Just go away you freak.
My regards,
Klarisa