Tar Baby Analogy

Did any of you feel this way? When I was going through a long D&D, it was the worst feeling I've ever had in my life, by far.

The only thing I could think that it felt like was the tar baby. He would hurt me by devaluing me publically or ignoring me or cutting me off emotionally or betraying me or lying to me, and I would try to push him away (make him leave the company) to get rid of the pain. That in turn would cause him to come back even harder and verbally abuse me and demand to stay in the relationship and hurt me more and I would try to push him away again. It was an awful cycle that seemed like it couldn't be broken.

I was stuck to the TAR BABY!

Did you feel that way? (what a weird sensation)