Talk sense to me please: think N did a drive through when I agreed to meet him...
Talk sense to me please: think N did a drive through when I agreed to meet him...
Of course you all were right. I think I got sucked right back into believing the magical nonsense when I agreed to meet my N when he showed up 11 months after moving away and abandoning me. We had a romantic dinner out and he acted totally in love with me for 6 hours...we talked of spending some time together later this summer - we talked of healing - I said I did not know if it was possible. I said lets see if we can be friends...secretly hoping he would fight for me.
He clung to me for hours (no sex - just hugs and kissing) - he did not want to leave.
He then left town without saying good bye. Since he went back East, I have received only two texts.
A "thank you" for wishing him happy father's day and a "enjoy the sunshine" text because I am on vacation. I have sent much friendlier texts...he has never called - I have called him to say goodbye before I flew on long trip.
He has NEW hooker looking girls on his FB, even grosser than the one I saw last Jan. It appears he added a new bar lady to FB while in town visiting for that week, someone about 30 years younger, stupid, illiterate, stumpy, same thing with tight short cheap clothes, heavy make-up...Yet I was his his only ever long term girlfriend (I am nice looking, educated and natural - look like a politician's wife if you know what I mean).
Looks are not the point - he totally is still on his image, ego trip and I thought he was being sincere with me! I swear I really thought he still was madly in love with me! He insisted he has no girlfriend, and this I believe! Instead, he has numerous bar hoes!! He has made no attempt to make me feel he really cares about whether we ever see each other again. He is CRAZY. If you could have seen him, just hugging me like a baby and saying he has no idea why he let us break up. Please help me not be crazy too!!! I have to say that I am doing well, despite this second round of cruel treatment because I did so much work all winter reading and letting go, and I really did not expect he would follow through but I thought maybe a little effort would be made to keep contact - but no, I do not exist again...I am still thinking of moving but it is harder now to be excited aafter letting myself see him - if I move there will be even less chance of ever seeing him. I cannot handle finality yet but I am not devastated like January...
If I see him this summer, I don't want you guys to give up on me, I got it bad because I think he does love me - but why do I even want to be near a crazy person?? but I do.
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