Supply is supply no matter who and no matter what

Hi everyone...hope you all are doing great...for those in the first few weeks of NC....I know it's tough and it feels like the world is going to end...everyone said it gets better and I was skeptical...I'm at the 10 week mark and even though that is still so fresh, every week it gets better...the spinning is less frequent and takes less time to come back to reality

So I was just thinking about supply...and I will not use this as a bitch feet...just to give some information in my experience with supply...I know can see that supply is whatever form and with whomever is what they crave...and it's not always in the form of the OW

Back in 2008 my ex and I moved into a town home and he became friendly with the neighbor...at the time she was a 50 year old lesbian and the reason I mention that is because right off the bat she highly disliked me...but was drawn to my ex....I figured she preferred to have male friends...

Anyway she and my ex became close and hung out and I always felt left out or like she just tolerated my presence...I know of one time when we fought and I went home to my mothers for a week, she decided to take my place not as a sexual object, but as his protector....I came back home and she loaded his refrigerator with food and I saw her offering to give him money...he had plenty of money....ok so anyway she stopped liking him and I....and next thing you know our tires were slashed on two occasion....I know it was her...I know 100% but that's a whole separate story

Ok so we never talked to her for a few years...two summers ago I moved out again for like two months and he lied as he was being friends with her again...I mean really....he knew she slashed our tires and talked about us and would be her friend....then they stopped being friends months later....now they are friends again

Moral of the story, he ditched me for a woman that he wasn't sexually interested in bc she was gay....lied to me about their relationship, choose her over me at times, and didnt give a shit that it hurt me he was friends with her...she hated me for a reason I still to this day do not know why...and didnt care about my feelings at all....this woman runs through friends like water and and is not trustworthy yet he didnt care about me....bc she feeds his ego and gives him supply...so it doesn't always have to be a woman that he is sexually interested in for them to discard you for or devalue you with...or even triangulate you with

I just realized this today...he wasnt ever loyal to me even with friends....I was last...bc this woman did not like me and made it known, he didnt care how hurtful it was to me, all he cared about was him being in the neighborhood clan..and if that meant ditching me, he had no qualms about it

It's all about them and never about us!!! Supply is supply is supply

I used to get upset about his relationship with her and now I laugh...how pathetic of an individual to be friends with a person who slashed our tires and cost us over 1000 dollars in the process....bc he needs his ego stroked and to feel apart of the cool neighborhood group...and the rest of the neighborhood people I know watch on and think, wow!!!