Still healing?

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#1 Mar 20 - 10PM
mmp526
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Still healing?

My N left me 15 months ago- and we have been NC for 10 months. We are still married, and likely will be for now (long story). I have learned that he left me for another woman, and he is no longer with her- pretty sure he just repeated with her.
My focus now is on my healing. I have been through hell for the last 15 months. I am still not fully healed- I am sad a lot of the time, and can't seem to get in a good, healthy place. I know it is not depression- I have been getting help in this area and am able to function well. I am still in therapy. I do many healthy things- running, eating right, meditating, picking up old hobbies, seeing friends. Trying to stay organized- keeping my home and car clean. Focusing on raising my son.
But the sadness continues to follow me. Is anyone else in this same place? Is this normal? Will this sadness and dark cloud that follows me ever go away? I can still feel the negative things he said to me echoing in my head and it still effects me. And springtime seems to be a trigger (we met in the spring), so old memories come popping up- not as often as they used to, but they are still there nagging at me.
I would love to be able to be comfortable in my own skin, to be happy in the place I am at in life, and to have some kind of hope and excitement for the future. I'm not there yet.
Thank you for any feedback.

Mar 22 - 3PM
Butterfly3572
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Still healing

Mar 22 - 3PM (Reply to #21)
mmp526
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I'm so glad I'm not alone!! I

Mar 22 - 4PM (Reply to #22)
lmac70
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great read

Mar 21 - 2PM
GeorgiaGirl
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Mmp,

Mar 21 - 2PM (Reply to #17)
mmp526
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Georgia- I dont get tax

Mar 21 - 4PM (Reply to #18)
GeorgiaGirl
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You need to get out of his head!

Mar 21 - 6PM (Reply to #19)
mmp526
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I do taxes- I HAVE to file

Mar 21 - 6AM
Sparrow
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I believe you are mistaking

Mar 21 - 8AM (Reply to #14)
mmp526
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Yes Sparrow, this makes

Mar 21 - 8AM (Reply to #15)
Sparrow
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It actually takes at minimum

Mar 21 - 3AM
midnight7
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I was with the xN for 10

Mar 21 - 6AM (Reply to #5)
mmp526
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Where I live, divorce

Mar 22 - 12PM (Reply to #8)
lmac70
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You don't have to say yes

Mar 22 - 12PM (Reply to #9)
mmp526
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I have to say I"m married

Mar 22 - 3PM (Reply to #10)
lmac70
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yes, Spring Cleaning!

Mar 22 - 4PM (Reply to #11)
mmp526
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Magic Wand= YES But I know

Mar 22 - 4PM (Reply to #12)
lmac70
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true that

Mar 21 - 6AM (Reply to #6)
midnight7
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Dear mmp526,

Mar 21 - 8AM (Reply to #7)
mmp526
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I live in a no fault

Mar 20 - 10PM
Fearless
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mmp...

FeFe

Mar 20 - 10PM
Renegade
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Yes, you are still healing

Mar 21 - 2AM (Reply to #2)
Belle de jour
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I've always wanted to ask