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#1 Jul 30 - 5PM
Anonymous (not verified)
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Song that kills me

I haven't shared my story but, I have read some of the stories and listened to some of Lisa's broadcasts.
Lisa has referred to men with NPD as vampires. I was totally drained. At some point, I will share all of my story and I'm sure it will sound familiar. I literally felt like the living dead and he is the one that drove me there. I was a ghost in my own house. I cried, screamed, got angry, left and he didn't care one bit.
This song still makes me cry because it sums up the most of my marriage. Thankfully, I am now divorced, but because we have a child he is still in my life. It's hard to deal with him as he still knows how to manipulate me sometimes.

Listen here: http://www.imeem.com/people/WHK82s/music/qeagR8R8/im-just-a-ghost-in-thi...

Or look it up: I`m Just a Ghost in This House by Allison Crouse

Jul 30 - 10PM
devoured_soul (not verified)
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wow, that song...

First of all, is Allison Crouse and whomever is playing slide on that song not amazing??...and God, the power in her words and how I have been thru that lifelessness when your soul is gone... the pain they leave behind...the inability to put a thought together let alone DO anything. I couldn't even cook dinner for my daughters, I've had trouble finding supplemental income, my house went to shit, I drank too much (STILL DO), smoked too much (STILL DO)...the song brought tears to my eyes (OK, SOBBED). I can't even wear my own perfume because it "reminds" me of him. And ANY music is hard to listen to (and it used to be everything to me). All songs make me think of him somehow. Life took a turn I never knew existed. At the age of 42 and having been thru hell and back, this was the worst of it all combined times a million and as God as my Witness, that is not an exaggeration. Thanks for sharing the song, as painful as it was to hear. I have to feel the pain in order to heal and I choose not to deny it. MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU IN HIS GRACE.
Jul 30 - 8PM
Marie
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Welcome

Welcome Mom! You will find a lot of support here feel free to vent, vent, vent. Yes, they are vampires, bottom feeding vampires. Good that you are no longer living with him. Having a child with one must be hard as James pointed out. I've watched my N use his child to get back at his ex and to pick up women, he disgusts me. Be strong!
Jul 30 - 6PM
James (not verified)
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Thanks for sharing

Being a single parent myself I know how hard it gets whenever someone has a child with them. A child like yourself is nothing more then a object to them to use and use them they will as much as we or the courts allow them too. Again thanks for sharing! http://james-personalitydisorder.blogspot.com/