Something big just clicked - Christmas violence
Something big just clicked - Christmas violence
I just figured something out.
Christmas 2009 - I was on the path of growing awareness that I was being abused and manipulated.
On Christmas Eve, my ex had cried because he didn't have his daughter or mum with him. I was a complete mug and lit a fire, made mince pies, poured him a sherry, made a big fuss of him, listened to him wailing on about his loss.
Christmas Day. My dad had died the previous year. This was the first Christmas where I could think about my Dad without all the numb shock. My ex had put music on really loudly and I was preparing the veg for our Christmas roast. I asked him to turn the music down as it was so loud it would have disturbed the neighbours plus I said I was suddenly having thoughts about my Dad and would he mind just turning it down a touch so I could be mindful of the thoughts.
He suddenly said, "Oh so that's what you're playing at! All the things you did yesterday was so you could score points for today."
He stormed out. Tried to storm back in again. I had bolted the door. He was yelling and roaring in the street to be let in. I grabbed my "running away" bag, phone, bank cards, laptop. Went to open the door. He slammed me against a wall by my neck and said, "You're not leaving, not today." His eyes were wild with weirdness.
I left with a struggle.
I now realise the temper tantrum and violence was because another man had taken over my thoughts for a few minutes and he was jealous.
That literally just clicked for me.
Wow!
peacelily76
It's something, isn't it, peace?
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scary, thank God you
fooled no longer...
what a creep
Isn't it amazing how looking
Nan
You asked him to turn the
His mum and daughter...