SOMEONE TALK TO ME........please

I have been struggling non-stop for over 2 weeks since my last contact with my exN. We haven't seen each other since June 17, and it seems like years.

Why do I miss him - when I knowing I'm missing a fictious character from a movie or a disney character. I know he was probably cheating the whole time we were together, he was probably lieing the whole time we were together - that every single moment was mine. That everytime he was good, it was a reflection of me.

SO please tell me why I miss him - why do I want to hear from him - is this normal? Am I crazy?

I went out on a date last night - thinking that this might help me with getting over him - but no I came home in tears crying myself to sleep not knowing how to trust. How do you trust again. Are there good men in this world? Are they all full of crap.

Someone help me - please - someone please help me as I no longer want to feel this hurt, I no longer want to want him. I no longer know how to feel.

Please tell me that he will not contact me - that his 2 weeks of silence is just the beginning of never hearing or seeing him again.

Please someone - help -