So he uses and abuses...

I really find it highly sad that these narcs use and abuse so well and so callously. While with him, he would preach how much he wasn't invested in his previous rship (with child), how he was always looking for something better, looking for love, never married as he believes you need "true love" to marry, never fully committed yet lived there as a father. I questioned the "never committed" business and he said that he was there, but he wasnt (head space). This astounded me as how cruel is that. She knew none the wiser...well she did but chose to continue and hold onto her CD. He said that he was her securty blanket, which is true.

Now he has gone back to OW, as I left, and he uses her AGAIN. Security blanket once more. This means he knows what he is doing, knows why he is doing it (to not be alone clearly), talks all sweet and loving to never lose her to someone else because she is the prime back-up; mother of his child.I really really feel for her too becuase I cant see two people being together when I know the truth. It goes against my morals of right and wrong.

Its sickening that someone can just utilise people. Its the only thing I cannot come to terms with from this experience. I dont love him, I dont wish to go back, I dont want to see him but the WHY and HOW CAN YOU still hold true.

I also personalise the behaviour, which I know not to do but rational mind and psycho mind are two different things.

The day I seek some vengeance, I will be one happy girl. Whether I can be bothered doing so, is another story.

Lovely1 x