Sick and tired of myself

I feel pathetic; yesterday complete obsessing. I want him to hurt. I put in the mail a copy of the page where his son states that he can hear him “going out it” with OW. Miss me, want me back, sleep with OW. Pathetic, I know. I didn’t matter at all and that’s the hardest part. Why can’t I just move on, be done with it. I was a willing victim to my own demise. I want him to be something that doesn’t exist. I was treated terribly. How could I let him hurt me so much? I know I have so much work to do on myself. I just want a little relief. I felt so much better before the OW info. How to stop thinking about him???