Marina's story
Marina's story
Madonna/Whore Complex
I met my exNBF online. We met in person and we got along great. The idealization phase lasted for 3 months. He was assigned to another city for work and we were long distance for a while. He knew I am a virgin and he was expressive about his desires of our "intimate future".
He was reassigned back to the same city were I was and that's when I suspected the D&D began. He offered me zero affection and he said it turned him off when I initiated it. Then I found out he's been cheating on me with sluts. It hurt me so much to think of myself as undesirable while he goes around and sleeps with sluts for NSA sex. He even said at one time that he disliked sluts.
We talked about why he refused to sleep with me or even touch me even though we were officially in a relationship. He said it's because he cannot commit and he'll screw me over. He once said early in the relationship that he's unworthy of me (in a physical sense). Most likely because he sleeps around.
I get that sexual narcissists prefer sluts for their sexual narcissistic supply. I just don't understand why his reasons for not sleeping with me seemed so altruistic. It doesn't add up. Or maybe he just wasn't attracted to me. Madonnas are asexual. Or maybe he's withholding something he knew I wanted.
I ended the relationship after the cheating. I suspect I caused him narcissistic injury. He wanted to remain friends after and even sought my company even if I set boundaries and there was nothing physical involved. We were "friends". I don't understand why he still chooses to spend time with me knowing I "rejected" him and that he'll get no sexual action from me knowing how hyper sexual he is. He did once say I'm the one and that I'm different from the others. On one hand, he still keeps his harem of sluts for his NSA narcissistic supply.
HE wON!!!
same here Marina
Aceonelady
welcome Marina
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