Share your story? Yeah right? Not me!

I thought "uh oh, this is my job as a moderator, I'd better help her get that fixed!" :P I imagine, while you are still "in" and in with such a potentially violent man, that telling your story is going to be very hard. Like, too much reality all at once, too much to get down, very overwhelming, frightening :( You can tell your story in bits and pieces. And, you can tell it in your own time. It is therapeutic, definitely. But give yourself a break . . . you have a lot on your plate.

Start to end. Get it out there. What was the first time you say them.. how did they seem, what did they say, what went on. Did they call, email, text. How did you feel. How did you handle it. What did you see in this person. What did they want you to believe about them. Who else did they rope in to get you into a relationship with them. How did they operate in your life. Begin. Start to finish, to where you are now. Where did you meet them, what what was the circumstance, what did they say, do, what were they wearing, everything. Describe what happened to you, from the VERY START. To where you are NOW.

I'm in the same place regarding posting my story---it's soooooo convoluted, I don't know where to begin.I've had some false starts, too. I also think it will be an all-day project, which my schedule won't allow right now. I think about starting it, and I get an overwhelming urge to curl up in a fetal position........(which I think my mind is already doing) Oddly enough, I'm usually on target when I'm posting to someone else to help them with their situation---but when it comes to my own stuff........it's like I have a giant blind spot. So, I know what you mean about writer's block. Also, I think I'd rather wait for the board to go private, my anonymity is important to me.

I was totally the same about telling my story, and I needed to find within myself why I had the block. I could not even tell it let alone write it if it meant that someone else may read it. For me it was a combination of things, and while I can write it now, I still have not posted it on this board. At this point, and for other reasons, I am going to wait until the new site is up and running so that it will be private and only accessible by board members. A couple of the blocks I had were 1. Grew up in an environment that meant what happened in the home stayed in the home...was deeply ingrained. 2. Loyalty...as ridiculous as this may sound, I had a very high level of loyalty to intimate relationships, and could not bad mouth a person whether they deserved it or not. 3. Guilt...only having one side of the story told...maybe I was wrong? 4. Shame...I always appeared to others as a strong, capable person, and I felt that because of my silence, I had kind of lied about my situation, so therefore I had let others down (yup magical thinking, the only person I really let down was me) 5. Probably like most people here, I feel like I could write a book, and I have no idea where to start or finish it, how much to tell, etc etc. Also when I write long protracted stuff I tend to wander off track, so it would require a fair bit of effort to write. Mostly it was the first two, but there was a combination of several other reasons that niggled away. Anyways these were some of my blocks.

Let me understand blueeyes. You have tried to post a story on "share your story" section. Are You are unable to save it successfully? Or are you unable to access this part of the site all together? Also, you said that you are unable to email your friend your story? If you are having problems with your private email then it is something in your computer settings that needs fixed. If you are trying to post your story from a blackberry i do not think this is possible. I could be wrong but i will confirm this with chad and get back to you. If you would like me to post it for you send me the story and i will make sure it gets put up. But you will first need to get your email setting fixed. xoxo

I just spoke to Betty. Might be cause you're working on your blackberry. She's looking into it and said she will contact you. Also be sure to put in another request or confirm that you want my email. Send me a note when you get it. I did the same. Hope you are well. You can vent in an email until you can get your story posted if you like.

I also have found myself unable to write my story due to writer's block. So, I totally understand. I have written a few paragraphs so far and become overwhelmed. I log in here everyday and read every new post. Although I have not told my story, I feel a connection to everyone here.

I'll make sure Betty knows about this. Do you have her email? You could write out your story and she could post it for you :)