sexual abuse
sexual abuse
I've been preoccupied with this N thing. Entering the sadness stage of my recovery I believe but I'm going to discuss something I've kept semi private d/t embarasement, shame, confusion. But I want to heel so that my daughter has a healthý, happy mom. This is part of my healing.
Can u b sexually abused in a marriage?
The following is sexually explicit:
I've never gone into detail about this before not even with my therapist. I'm ready to talk about it now.
He wanted sex all the time. When we were first married we would take days off work to have sex all day. And I mean all day. I was flattered at first. Somewhere along the line it became cold and unpleasant. I felt depressed afterward. Physically it felt good but something just wasn't right. I still can't exactly put my finger on it. When I got pregnant my stomach was in his way during sex. After I had the baby. He thought he coluld have sex with me 4 days after! When I reminded him the dr said 4-6 wks he said well you're just going to have to give me oral sex I guess I mean what else? He made comments to people about how often we did it. He tried to do it in front of our daughter when she was 2-3 yrs old but ended that when I stood my ground and would not let that happen. He wanted threesomes, anal sex and was very verbal during. When our friends would come over he'd say things like okay let's go back in the bedroom and just grin. Right in front of their husbands. So embarrasing. But if no one commented he would pretend to be joking. He said why don't you come home from work and ravage me. Truth be told I just started letting him do whatever he wanted to me because he said he wanted a divorce one time when I attempted to politely turn him down. It was total rejection for him. He asked me for a threesome with another man 1 week after I found out about all his affairs. I did not end up doing it but agreed to it if it meant keeping him. There were times I played his game and stayed under the dining room table naked for an hour at a time. Any time he sat down at the table I was supposed to perform oral sex while he surfaced the laptop for porn. I felt like a dog. He could come and go as he pleased but I had to stay there until I was dismissed.
I was a pon on his chestboard. He was the master strategist. I'm sorry this is so explicit. I honestly thought this was normal married stuff. Any advice to encourage me to heal in this area would be appreciated.
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Jen
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Thank you. This all affirms
http://hubpages.com/hub/Married-to-a-Narcissist?preview
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Sexual abuse