Hello am a 25 year old female basically homeless because am dependent on my NC. I would like to get a job and get back in school. Knowing I can't put the cart before the horse, I find myself seeking shelter. I am tired of being afraid and tired of being sick and tired.
I am ready to start my life- I can't do that without a safe place to stay a stable healthy situation to go into.
I have been chronically homeless since I was 18 released from system( group-homes foster homes " in and out of abusive relationships struggled with drinking because it would make me numb and I would black out and wouldn't have to deal with the world I live in
( When I "USE TO not anymore drink I would never become obnoxious but super chill calm not worried about anything but kept getting A-poisoning ), I have struggles with eat disorders to deal with my life filled with feeling out-of control and repeatedly getting stuck in abusive situations enough that I have been diagnosed with PTSD- FAMILY ( family who what ? )family is screwed up there not an option".
I have seen better times and some not so good times. I currently have been in and out of a unhealthy relationship with a self professed mentally ill, drug addict who is abusive mentally emotionally physically.
I have left and went back ( a cycle ). But am done with being treated "low" being demeaned and dehumanized. I have had shelter and at other times not. While I can't change my past I can change my future. I don't want to be 40 and still on and off the street in and out of bad relationships where am being dominated and controlled. I don't know if you can help me but if you can please contact me back and direct me to any resources you have. Thank you for your time and consideration.
P.S. One major setback is my lack of job skills. I haven't worked in almost 6 years. I have kinda been lost. I have struggled with drinking domestic abuse relationships and have just been jumping around alot I admit to it and haven't been as focused as I SHOULD BE am not perfect but I means something that I accept my mistakes errors and want to learn from them and make a better future for myself.
Am getting older and now have the realization I have virtually no job skills or references. I am in the same position that a out of work stay at home uneducated mom would have "nothing". At one time I even tried a job search place and they just "expected me to to go "get a job" like its as simple " there are people out of work who have college degrees and I don't even have community college" ( BUT HEED MY WORDS I WILL I WON'T GIVE UP AND I WILL BE A EDUCATED WOMEN ) when I don't have an a resume or any experience.
Thank you for taking the time. I am desperate for "real" help and real"hope" that I CAN have a future and a reason to live.
CAN ANYONE HELP IN ANY WAY ..POINT ME TO A CHURCH OR MAYBE CAN TALK TO SOMEONE AT THERE CHURCH ( AM WILLING TO RELOCATE IF THE SITUATION WILL BE HEALTHY AND STABLE )
STAYING IN MY LOCAL AREA ISN'T A OPTION
PLEASE IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP