Question about recovery
Question about recovery
Over the weekend, I have been feeling good about myself. I still read a lot on this site and lately, I've been reading more about cognitive dissonance, stockholm syndrome and brainwashing. I want to gain a better understanding of what made me stay and allowed this person to have so much effect on my self-esteem and self-worth.
As I was lying in bed last night, it hit me. I no longer want to analyze the situation. I've done so much analyzing, trying to understand him, trying to understand me and trying to understand everything. I don't know if I hit information overload. Then, I felt depressed. I felt like life is empty. I think this whole time, I was so focused and obsessed with the N, then it moved to me just trying to make it through the day maintaining NC. Now, I think I just got bored obsessing about him and trying to survive this ordeal that I feel like I need to do something else to move forward. I don't know if I am making sense.
I feel like I am in between 2 planes. But to let go of this one and step to the next level is scary because this was so familiar to me. Does anyone have this experience?
I am not saying that this doesn't hurt but I think I am just so tired of this part of my life, and I think it's time to do me right.
Not this time
janie
You nailed it for me tonight
Standing on the bridge
Wow, DS!
Obsession mode keeps you out of feeling mode
Thanks Goldie!
the cusp
Hello Femnarc!
yes, yes, yes, n-t-t,
spinning
Spinning you guys are just really awesome!
Absolutely
Pumpkin