The Power of NOW saved me this weekend

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#1 Feb 24 - 10PM
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The Power of NOW saved me this weekend

Friday was really depressing for me. It was cold and rainy! I looked at the clouds and they were really thick and dark. I know that it played a major contributor to my dark mood. By the end of my work day, I went home and felt like a zombie...I was impatient with my kids. I went out for a couple of drinks with my friends and when I came home, I cried like a baby! Saturday morning I wanted to stay in bed but then I heard a voice in my head telling me to get the hell out of bed and stop being miserable! This voice also told me to make some damn breakfast for the kids! I know it sounds crazy and I am actually laughing remembering it. It was like my subconscious talking to me or something. I did what she asked me to do and then she told me to carry my butt to the gym because it would make me feel better. Boy oh boy was she right!! I felt liberated! When I got home, I soaked in the tub and I pulled out Lisa's book. She had mentioned the book "The Power of NOW".

After my bath, I told the kids to get ready because we were going to Barnes and Nobles. I went on a scavenger hunt looking for this book and found it. I am still trying to wrap my head around it all. Its basically about living in the present,.. and using your memories as experiences but do not dwell on them in a negative way. In the beginning of the book, he shared his experience of self realization:

“I couldn’t live with myself any longer. And in this a question arose without an answer: who is the ‘I’ that cannot live with the self? What is the self? I felt drawn into a void. I didn’t know at the time that what really happened was the mind-made self, with its heaviness, its problems, that lives between the unsatisfying past and the fearful future, collapsed. It dissolved. The next morning I woke up and everything was so peaceful. The peace was there because there was no self. Just a sense of presence or “beingness”, just observing and watching.”

The mind really is a powerful tool!! Although I am not finished with the book, Saturday was awesome! I observed the thoughts that I had of my exN, but I consciously let them roll off of me. I slept so peacefully last night.

Today was even better... I made friends with the voice talking to me and I am sure she was happy that I made the decision to go to the gym on my own! I spent really good quality time with my kids at the skating rink. Today, I lived in the NOW. The past tried to peek his head in there, but disappeared when he wasn't getting the same attention he used to. And one thing that I noticed that I didn't before...my kids are such a perfect example of living in the present moment, no matter what they do, their entire attention is on that. They also ignore the future and forget the past. The glow shows in their eyes and on their cheeks.

So I just wanted to share my experience with you all and I hope that we all can find inner peace...My love goes out to all of you...

Feb 27 - 1AM
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OMG, This is such an awesome post

Feb 26 - 6PM
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I understand what you mean

Feb 26 - 1AM
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I read that book several

Feb 26 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
unbreakmyheart
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Yesterday I was feeling a

Feb 26 - 5PM (Reply to #8)
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unbreakmyheart

Feb 26 - 10AM (Reply to #4)
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I find the practice of being

Feb 27 - 2AM (Reply to #5)
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Profound as usual DS

Feb 27 - 12PM (Reply to #6)
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Forgiveness is a big piece of

Feb 27 - 12PM (Reply to #7)
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Wow, again...

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Feb 24 - 11PM
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