Please help I feel desperate afraid and lost
Please help I feel desperate afraid and lost
darling today i reached a new low for the first time in my life I am really afraid I cant rember ever feeling so raped so degraded so without hope as he set me up for the fall again today he suggested lunch and a walk I sgreed we have seen so little of each other in the past three weeks. then two nights ago he flung at me in a 2 second rant that he was leaving to go to America he had already told his boss yes in the second he asked. he just never thot to tell me his wife of 4 months.
so i thought today would be a discussion of jow we would manage the house finances when he goes, the end of our hopes and dreams. i was hoping for some contrite honesty or at leadt humanity.
instead he poked for every hole he could find in my armour to stick the knife in.
he refused to admit that he had suggested a walk for us to talk and resolve. he just insisted the sun was shining and he had nothing better to do, than drive an hour to meet me in a park and then having nothing to discuss.
he wanted the last word, he wanted to tell me all his behavior is perfectly ok and that he feels nothing but pleased with himself. OMG after 2 hrs of getting blood from a stone . he cold heartededly walked away leaving me in the park in sub zero temparures to find my way home wuthout my purse which he had in his pocket. i had to find money and spend one hour getting back to the apt im staying at.
he drove home I assume to go home nonchalently leaving me curled in a ball in pain in a distant park and whats the bet hes sitting in our warm home watching the soccer without a care in the world.
i really do belive now he is capable of anything and just wanted the pleasure of sticking the knife in one more time.
i am really broken i have never felt pain like this to see the inhumanity and the casual brutality of him inhuman. i cant deal with the fact that i loved this man and slept next to him for all these years. man im in a bad way!
How sick
You know, in reading your
fooled
Fooled
Fooled No Longer...Stay Away,,,Listen
the Narc who stole Christmas
Good Job
He is moving to another country?
fooled nolonger
hey
TO loveofmylife
hankyou for your messages
foolednolonger
Broken
Fooled NO LONGER!
It is over for me I know
foolednolonger