To play a narc is the easiest thing in the world if...
To play a narc is the easiest thing in the world if...
you want to lose your soul.I should know I did it. I've been a member a long time and a reader long before that and have been with my narc most of that time. Why? Because I gave him what he needed.I will remain vague as this is an open forum and privacy is a concern for me.
He had three basic needs in a relationship,a highly attractive woman(show piece),fun,and wild crazy never ending sex. I filled all three for more years than I would like to remember.
No,I wasn't a pushover nor did I engage in the deviant behavior he begged me for. I just made him believe it was a possibility. It became a never ending game for him to see how far I would go.He was forever grooming me(you are so hot,you are the best lover I have ever had,your p is beautiful etc) I knew exactly what he was doing but NEVER let on. He was a master at giving a woman exactly what she longed for. The sex was the kind I longed for and here it was in a beautiful sexy package all for the taking. In the sex addict post many of you have described the mind blowing sex. It is seduction at its ultimate. Years later it only got better. It was a highly passionate (toxic)relationship. He was never abusive,although he raged from time to time. He always built me up. We also had long conversations and spent as much time together as possible. JACKPOT!!Perfact ha? Nope..always a game. An exhausting anxiety filled game and in the end I had lost myself.
To sum this up in the end he left ME.I pushed him to do it. In the end we were better in every way than we had ever been. But I couldn't trust it.I became everything that I despised.A history of way too many D&D's(he would never leave me -always made me break up with him),too many lies and the reality that the man I loved would never ever be able to love me back.He was INCAPABLE of becoming vulnerable to me. That would mean loss of power and control. His famous line when we had problems was this"I'll get another one that looks just like you" I think I'll end with that. Don't ever play the game ladies!
playing the N
Twelve years Janine
Never Abusive
Thank you tresor2
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