Thank You Everyone
Thank You Everyone
From what I've read, most of you are women, but a lot of your experiences have helped me out in some way or another. Mostly help me realize that not everything was my fault and trying to stay strong. I relate to about 90% of the things you've all described about a Narc. After reading all the stories we were together the average 8 years, married for 6.
I'm pretty sure she was going to drag it out for as long as possible, but I caught on to her scheme and filed for divorce. Lets just say I found out what real Narc rage is. Then she did the apology thing, followed by I'm a useless husband and it kept going from there to all my stuff thrown away while I was deployed.
The hardest part is being away from my son. I'm in Europe now and he was supposed to come with me, but when her boyfriend went to jail, she changed her mind. She keeps trying to use him for us to get back together. I try to call him everyday, but if I don't call sometimes because of work she writes the most horrible emails about how I'm a useless father, but when I do call she wants to talk about us and what we can do to fix it, even though she has another boyfriend. I met him in court; it was her lawyer, her ex-boyfriends lawyer. I went to court with her family and mine trying for custody, but lost that fight. It’s hard for a military father to get custody; especially a 3 year old.
I can say the scariest is when she's nice to me. It comes out of no where and after 8 years with her, I'm on edge all the time when I hear her voice. It's like being in combat, except a lot more scary with her. I could probably write for days about my experience and all the crap that goes with it, but I think most of you know the deal.
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War Training
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