Still a bit stuck!

Hi everyone, I actually used to be on here as Nils and had a problem trying to log in so I'm back under this name! I think there may have been a problem as I set up a new email (to escape contact from Satan!) and the forwarding from my old one wasn't working so I wasn't getting the password reset through!

So I think I've come some distance to being better. I had a wobble and broke contact by emailing him mid October, but I immediately changed my email address so I wouldn't see any response from him (I still wonder sometimes whether he ever emailed backbut I had a friend change my password and made her swear not to give it to me!). I deleted him as a friend on facebook a while ago but then about a month ago I blocked again all together as I realised when I posted things I wondered if he was seeing them (we have a few mutual friends), and I also once in a while checked to see if he had changed his photo which isn't healthy.

But my Problem is I'm still thinking about it all a lot which is frustrating me. I'm busy at work, seeing my friends, exercising a lot and making lots of fun plans but I find whenever I'm not doing something thoughts inevitably drift back. Does anyone else find this? I guess there's nothing we can do to control our thoughts though! It just irritates me...