I've still got it lol
I've still got it lol
ok. Yesterday afternoon I called about an ad in the paper for a pickup truck that was real cheap. I need one because I need to move my stuff out and I can't find anyone to help me. plus, having a truck, I feel is a large part of feeling independant, to me. My little brother died 3 years ago leaving his vehicles to me. I havn't touched them or really evan looked at them since he died. But yesterday I decided I was going to sell them as a first step to letting go of my painful past and escaping into a future filled with hope and asperations. Anyway, I called this add for a truck in hopes of trading one of my brothers vehicles. The guy came out to my moms house to look at what I have to see if he wants to trade. well, he was young and driving a camero. He kept kind of flirting with me and acting interested. At firt I didn't recognize that it was flirting because I have felt invisable for soooo long. But It defenatly was. Now ofcoures he is probably a pig(I think that because I mentioned that I have a husband and he still kept flirting) and the fact that I caught his attention probably means he is a flaming narcisist. But that is irelivant because I wouldn't touch any man with a ten foot pole right now. But just the fact that someone, anyone, especially a young guy like that would notice me just felt shamelessely good. I didn't know it until yesterday but I am a woman still. for so long I have felt more like a thing. That is another thing that went away when I was with him,my feminenity. Guys used to notice me all the time. I always had men hitting on me. I somehow lost my mojo in all of this I guess. Glad to know I still have a trace of it left. lol
Leah
Leah