I've still got it lol

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#1 Jun 1 - 11AM
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I've still got it lol

ok. Yesterday afternoon I called about an ad in the paper for a pickup truck that was real cheap. I need one because I need to move my stuff out and I can't find anyone to help me. plus, having a truck, I feel is a large part of feeling independant, to me. My little brother died 3 years ago leaving his vehicles to me. I havn't touched them or really evan looked at them since he died. But yesterday I decided I was going to sell them as a first step to letting go of my painful past and escaping into a future filled with hope and asperations. Anyway, I called this add for a truck in hopes of trading one of my brothers vehicles. The guy came out to my moms house to look at what I have to see if he wants to trade. well, he was young and driving a camero. He kept kind of flirting with me and acting interested. At firt I didn't recognize that it was flirting because I have felt invisable for soooo long. But It defenatly was. Now ofcoures he is probably a pig(I think that because I mentioned that I have a husband and he still kept flirting) and the fact that I caught his attention probably means he is a flaming narcisist. But that is irelivant because I wouldn't touch any man with a ten foot pole right now. But just the fact that someone, anyone, especially a young guy like that would notice me just felt shamelessely good. I didn't know it until yesterday but I am a woman still. for so long I have felt more like a thing. That is another thing that went away when I was with him,my feminenity. Guys used to notice me all the time. I always had men hitting on me. I somehow lost my mojo in all of this I guess. Glad to know I still have a trace of it left. lol

Jun 1 - 8PM
Lisa E. Scott
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Leah

Good for you Leah. I'm glad you're starting to feel your femininity and sexuality again. Narcissists take this away from us. We learn to bury this side of ourselves because when we do show it, it is rejected or criticized by the narcissist. I'm glad you're starting to feel alive again! You deserve it!
Jun 1 - 11AM
quietude (not verified)
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Leah

Hehe, hey...if it made you feel good, then no harm done! Our narcs would LIKE for us to think we are not desireable to anyone else, especially after they're gone. Mine had the nerve to say that I won't find anyone who loves me as much as he does, especially since I haven't yet in life. His aim was to hurt me of course, and it was a very poor attempt at a sales job to try to win me back. It's good that even though this dude was likely a player, you can see that the outside world views you differently than what your stbx narcissist has brainwashed you into thinking all this time!