He's found me...

Merry Christmas everyone.

So its been 3 years since i walked away from the Narc. It was long distance which has made it simple to loose contact.I was very ill, and suffering from anxiety attacts when ever he tried to contact me which also helped make me STAY away.

For 2 years he would have been able to find no trace of me on the internet. I also dropped my sir name, so he would be searching for the wrong person anyway.

Early February this year, i started to get one rings on my phone. At least once a day. Now my number, unfortunetly is very accessable because i run my own business. Infact he created my old website. I am not going to give that up, and loose all my contacts, just for him. No chance.

After this had been going on for a few days, my one call a day came late at night. It was always withheld. I answered it. and there was just silence. I could hear there was someone there. After a while i just put it down.

In the back of my mind i wondered if it could be him, but dismissed it seeing as it had been so long. Why now? The one rings continued for a few weeks. We used to one ring each others phone when ever we thought about each other, due to the long distance.. so i know its something he would do. I can not say for sure if it was him though.

In march i decided to sign up to facebook after alot of nagging from my friends! I had lost contact with most, due to hiding away. I also signed up to twitter after a while. It had been long enough, and i thought there was no way he would still think to search for me.. or even care, or even think to search with my first and middle name only.

He has a girlfriend who he has been with since he got the picture when i refused to reply to any of his texts and disapeared.

Yes. I mean't that much. Quickly replaced for a new Narcissistic feed.

Anyway, i have no idea how long this has been going on. But i actually started writing a blog on Narcisstic personality disorder. I have a stat counter on my blog and guess what?

There is a link from my twitter page, and he has some how found me, and now has been going on my blog for over a month. I know this as the host is for the business he works for. They are a small charity business, and only located in his small town. I dont advertise my blog, its for my personal healing.. so no one really knows about it. There is also another computer that goes on, but has been going on for alot longer. The location changes, but its the same computer and the same internet provider. Apparently this is because they unplug their router. Its in all the areas around where he lives.

I got paranoid and looked at my NEW business website stats, which he did not make. There was a user who kept coming back, searching for dance classes, in all the area's around where i live on google maps. I got suspicious as he is a website designer.. so knows all about getting you on first page of google etc. Well guess what. When i search for my business now.. i come up with a google maps picture next to it?

On my website stats it says their location is london. But when i use an ip locator website, it says its from his small town. Coincidence? Now how long has this been going on for i dont know, as i wouldnt have blinked an eye if it said london. He knows how to use anonymous surfing and all this.

I also recieved a prank call the other week. Could it be?

Why is he still searching after all these years? He is in a relationship like i said. Is he going to love the fact i have made this blog? Is it a way to feed as its almost a piece of me? The only piece he can grab hold of. I am so shocked he has found me.

Let me know your thoughts... x