Broke NC ARRGGHHH

I am SO cross with myself. No contact for two months and then I felt compelled two days ago to email him to acknowledge that I had also made a couple of mistakes during our relationship. I said it didn’t change how he behaved but that I wanted to acknowledge my own error!

Really I think it was just a reason to keep dialogue going! Now I’m predictably waiting for a response which may or may not come and if it does will be nonsense anyway. (I did actually mean everything I said, but saying it to him is completely pointless!). He is either going to ignore me, be vile, or just spout loads of nice rubbish.