OUR (the Victims' ) Guilt
OUR (the Victims' ) Guilt
I blamed myself because I was a nut in the beginning of the relationship. All he did and all that he was, could be traced, according to me, to MY behaviors early on.
But it was not just me. He would keep a laundry list of all the things I had ever done and every single argument would trot it out and throw it in my face. Whether it was forgetting something yesterday to a parking ticket last year to bouncing a check 3 years ago to not washing the dishes correctly 5 years ago to being a nut when we first started going out. It was all there, every argument, and it was endless and kept me perpetually frozen in a position of “Oh my goodness, I truly suck. It is so nice of him to put up with me. No wonder why he needs other women. No wonder why he gets abusive. I’m such a loser.â€
That guilt. That shame. That guilty shame kept me there for too many years. I became cloying and pitiful. I tried to please him and could not. I tried to “make it work†and I could not. It was my fault. If I hadn’t been such a NUT in the beginning none of this would be happening.
Read this whole great article here:
http://gettingpastyourpast.wordpress.com/2009/07/03/guilt-as-we-know-it/
ugly
Cgrl
when we feel guilty
for infinity - there's NOTHING wrong with you
I feel guilty & ashamed
i feel so guilty
What a Typical Gaslight Technique
gaslighting
Guilt
cherlynn, et al.
guilt and blame