Other men and going out socially terrifies me?

Before I got with my ex i used to go out most weekends when my daughter was at her dads, although i realise now i was extremely vunerable and in a bad place at that time to become swept off my feet with Mr ex, then once with him that was the end of me going out....Also he got with one of my friends (my sisters best friend) who was in our circle of friends so after me getting back with him for the 2nd time i lost most of my friends in the process- as everyone thought i was stupid for getting back with him after what he had done.

Any way long story short i havent been out with any friends on a night out in over 3 years- due to having my second baby aswell and the thought absolutely terrifies me!! I hardly have any friends now and if they ever ask me ( which is becoming very rare now) I always make an excuse. Im so scared of going out, im scared of drinking any alcohol coz it makes me so anxious after, and im also terrified of men in general- even taxi drivers make me anxious! Its like ive forgot how to be me, even if i take the kids shopping and a guy looks over i start getting all panicky and anxious!

Will i get over this? its like ive got a man fear and a fear of social places where people are going to want to talk to me, im like a hermit. My babies are my priority right now and im defo not looking for any relationship for a long time but im worried that im never going to snap out of this, its like im hypervigilant to men!! Looking back i was like this all the way through school and until i was about 16 years old, the doctor put me on anti depressents and i started drinking socially and suddenly my fear had gone! But look at the trail its left man after man after man since 16 who have been no good and just caused me devastation and heartbrake.

Sorry for going on, im just feeling confused tonight and scared im gonna be like this forever? Anyone else felt this way? and how did u get over it? xxxx