Oops! Can't believe I did this...

So, I have written emails to exN and never sent them but not for a while (as in several months) and I have been NC over 10 months. I came across his recent text hoover and was having a lark writing a reply and, OMG, I went to delete it and it was sent. Crap! I basically for the first time told him he was an N - I didn't know he was last time I communicated with him - and that his issues were no longer mine. Not even as well-stated as what I would have said if I planned to send something... I am so angry at myself! The irony is I was pissed about someone else and was just exorcizing those demons in my thoughts with this exercise!

I so hate that I responded at all - even unintentionally - but, on the other hand, all of his hoovers are as if everything is OK with us. Yeah, right... I have ignored him and his hoovers for over 10 months!!! So, now I articulated that who he is not OK with me and I am not willing to forget what happened. At least that's what I'm telling myself to get beyond this mishap. Crap, crap, crap! I can't change my number because it's my business line and there is no way to block a number with my provider. It was a wine-induced lark that went terribly wrong... A lesson was learned. Oh well, back on the NC horse now. ;(