OMG I'm spinning! PSTD?

So tonight I treated myself to a movie. It was a huge mistake sent me into a lot of bad places. Remembering so much seeing myself in the character. I haven't spoken to my N in 2 years, was strong enough not to fall for the 3 blatant Hoover attempts although he texted me multiple times about 4 months ago claiming to have the wrong number. It's funny how a film can send us back into that place we hate. Here I am again feeling lonely like I will never find love. I haven't dated since we broke up. Men just don't even seem to interest me. I feel like a prude. For those of you who plan on seeing Temptation (the marriage counselor) be careful! It's got N written all over! Ugh! Please someone send some encouraging words. I am struggling and I want to get his lying secretly bi ass off my mind! Help!