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#1 Sep 12 - 10AM
patricia barely...
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OMG I´m having a panick attack

Left the N 2 months ago. Because I have no family in the US, and because I had recently moved to another state for the N, I was left to face the D&D with no support whatsoever, no family, no friends to turn to, just a few co-coworkers.

Well, my mother came to spend some time with me. She is leaving today and I´m not sure I can handle it. I can´t breathe. I just vomited in the office kitchen. Nothing makes sense. I'm not sure I can face going home and being alone.

And I thought I was doing a little better :(

Sep 12 - 4PM
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Thanks to all

Said goodbye to my mother, and surprisingly, neither she nor I cried. We smiled and I said I will be fine. I think it's knowing I'm finally in a safe emotional place away from the predator (even if I'm pretty messed up at the moment) that gives us both peace of mind. This is going to be hell - dreading tonight - but I WILL get this rat out of my head. He is such a piece of sh!t and so not worth my pain. It still puzzles me that they mess up with our brains like that. Thanks to all for your support - this morning was rough and it makes a world of a difference to know you are there. Lots of love
Sep 12 - 12PM
ordinarycourage
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Dearest Patricia

I am so sorry for what you're going through right now - it's the worst of it. I went through something similar and my mom came to stay and help take care of my two kids so I could function at a bare minimum level. When she left, I didn't think I could make it but somehow I did. Are you seeing a therapist? If you can, go as often as you need to... weekly is good for a bit during the rough patches. Hugs and keep posting...we are here for you.
Sep 12 - 12PM
Anabelle
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Hey there... You are going to

Hey there... You are going to be ok. It's very, very difficult. This is reality. But you can make it. You are a strong woman. That's why he picked you sweet! Could you get in touch with a support group near you? Do you have a therapist? You need help to get over this. Go to the critical care if you need help. This is what I did, because I had no friends, I was in a new city. They will understand what do you have to deal with! We are all here for you. Just hang on here and post, post, post, talk, talk!!! Tell us everything and we will push you through. We all got help here once we were there where you are. But please DO NOT hide!!!! Take care. You gonna make it!!!!
Sep 12 - 12PM
Sparrow
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Greengirl is

Greengirl is right.........you are experiencing anxiety attacks. This will pass. Stay close to the forum, real close, until your anxiety passes. Good luck! Stay strong! You can do it!
Sep 12 - 11AM
greengirl91
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I didn`t got out of the house

I didn`t got out of the house some months after one D&D..it was hard to pick up the pieces and pull myself together. I had pannick attacks too, and anxiety. I took Calcium pills, and tried to eat as healthy as possible. That combined with peace and NC, will work, I can tell you. Stick around here too, and do what you feel you have to do, not what others tell you to. You have to get your strengtch back, and please stay around people who will not judje you, as much as possible. Those who do, will only drag you back in the drama. You can do it!
Sep 12 - 11AM
patricia barely...
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I'm feeling a little

I'm feeling a little better...breathing going back to normal. It's going away. Wheeeewww. Thank you all. I just need to make it through today. And then tomorrow, and the day after. Going to see a therapist this week. I've been in this country for almost 10 years, and I was perfectly fine alone before the N. I just need to work really hard in the next few months to get back there. Thanks again, and lots of love
Sep 12 - 11AM
Hunter
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You must go to a Therapist,

You must go to a Therapist, you need antidepressants! Hunter
Sep 13 - 12AM (Reply to #4)
Arwen
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Thank you for saying that

Thank you for saying that Hunter...thank G-d you did. To the poster: I have had anxiety attacks since I was 23 and I am in my mid-forties now. Trust me when I saw that while some anxiety disorder (attacks, panic) can get better with talk therapy, the therapeutic recommendation is always a combination of therapy and meds, and there is NO shame in meds and I DID NOT BECOME AND ADDICT and in fact take a terrific anti-depressant that takes care of depression and panic in one. Please PM me for more info. I can promise you one thing..panic snowballs if it is not stopped in its tracks. Much love to you and THANK YOU HUNTER for stepping in and saying this.
Sep 12 - 11AM
Scoop
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Panic attacks only really

Panic attacks only really last a few seconds , maybe a minute but its the fear of them that can hang around for a little while . The truth is you are not alone as we are here , night and day to see you through this . Write on here some more untill it pass , tell us about your day so far .. we are listerning .. xx
Sep 12 - 10AM
Used
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patriciabarelysurviving

deep breaths, and you can do this ,you can be alone..your mother will be a phone call away...please try and look at the positives...you are away from him.....just keep breathing slowly...i get them, if you panic they get worse...keep saying to yourself i will be ok i will be ok...xx