Oltimer needssome answers...

Me,i wwas in a long distance relationship with a N/P...I went from Amsterdam to Tulsa to be with him...when there he D&D ME VERY QUICKLY IN A DISGUSTING WAY...THEN PUSH AND PULL,SILENT TREATMENT THE WORKS...One day,while organizing his mail,i saw 2 receits,like from a grocery store ...but when i looked it was blank,except for a blue inkt stamp on it....one was a hunter guy,having a**l sex with a rabbit...the one stamp on the other receit was a stamp from winnie the pooh holding hands with a boy,overlooking a lake....very odd,2 blank receits ,only with blue inkt stamps....i did suspect him to be on the down low as black guys say when being intimate with men while having girlfriends or/and wifes...mine was A fro american,and was always saying that some gay guys or lesbian women were trying to hit on him...he did have 3 children,and did live with a woman who he left because his daughter went to the police saying he had abused her...and with me he couldn't keep an erection .He had sex with me 2 times...one not consumated,due to ED and the second time it only lasted 2 minutes,really...no foreply,justfrom behind....6 months later(i was back in Amsterdam)i asked him on the phone if he had someone else already....he said no,i am wondering how it is to be with a man...i think i am maybe gay...then i said,how this all came to the surface?he said you,is all because of you...then he said,"no dammit i am not gay,i said it so you will leave me alone...Ladies,is been 2 years now,and sometimes i get pretty distressed about this episode...All comments are welcome...i need some .Hughs...