Not sure about my emotions

Yes the a**hole Ex N hoovered again on Wednesday. He called from a different number (which is now also blocked). I only answered as I was awaiting a call from the car repair service. I should have hung up but instead all my rage and anger came out.

Yes I listened to him briefly, told him to leave me alone and hung up. I then left the house and pull into the pharmacy. He is there or followed me not sure. But he speaks to me. More lies and BS. I call him on all of it. I tell him to leave me alone and stop with the games because I am not interested.

So now it gets funny, true Narc. He says he had bought me a ring but returned it. Again with the "I love you" "can't live without you" "i've spoken to a therapist" "I know you don't want me but you need to know I am hurting without you" oh yeah he then tells me about two songs that make him think of me ( that he has to teach to) but then says how with the new gf it is a clean slate and how he feels she will never cheat on him.

My reply is great then have a happy life with her stay out of mine. I've moved on. Now we get to the real reason he is back. he heard I was with someone else ( I am not) it is making him nuts. He tells me how fucked up he is and can't be alone. Ahh finally some truth.

anyway he swears he will prove to me that I am the one he wants even if I dont want him back, that he will be alone. That his actions will speak louder then his words.

Umm yeah NARC I am not biting. he leaves. I was very cold, non emotional, gave nothing. I felt good. Then Thursday it comes over like a wave and yes stalked crazy adrienne comes back. On my way to the gym I drive past her apartment and yes his car is there.

Now please don't yell at me about this. I knew what his actions would be and I realized I just wanted to prove it to myself so I could not have a doubt in my mind. I was not angry or upset. No tears. Then at the gym I swear I thought I would scream. Someone runs up and shows me the picture he posted on FB of him & her tagged "me & my sweetie *** with a heart" I politely responded that I never want to see or hear about him again and if she could not respect that I would not speak with her. I swear some people are idiots.

Again the pic didn't bother me. It looked quit honestly fake and posed.

anyway I decided to leave him a vm. I said " Narc it is over. Never contact me again in any way, do not look for me, or mention my name. You do not exist and neither d I and neither did our relationship. You are a pathological liar, a worthless piece of shit loser. Never ever contact me again" I also left the date and things he said about me and her on the vm in case he wanted to play it for her. lol. But I was not yelling just firm and a nasty tone.

Finally I feel like I can breathe. Like maybe he will be gone for good. My head was not spinning and still isn't. I feel like I have no emotion after months of being so emotional. I actually feel relief. It still amazes me how sick he is and thank you for this site because I swear this man has said everything you have all said they say.

So is this normal? Could he really be gone and I can breathe? or is he going to play more games? I truly just want him to go away. I made it clear their is nothing here for him and that we are over and that honestly I hate him.

Has anyone else been in this situation? I swear he comes back on the 28th each month.

sorry for the long post.