No response to a hoover

Ok girls I am asking for help in which I hope will be my last head straightener. No matter how much I try I cant quite get it into my head that a hoover IS NOT a compliment.

I havent had a hoover since the final d and d..but I just have a feeling that wont go away that he's going to be back.

I dont know if I am going to explain this properly but I will try..

It feels like if he hoovered 'one last time' it would show I was still in his thoughts, I would get an ego boost from that?

I have read things on here but for some reason I am just not quite getting it..so asking for help..maybe if people can give me stories of hoovers they fell for? I dont know what bit will make it click but I am so so much better.

When people say 'you dont matter' it makes me feel worthless and Im looking to try and get strength without making me feel shit..I hope that makes sense to someone? x