No get out of my head
No get out of my head
I woke up with him on my mind today! Perhaps it was a text message I got last night from a friend who saw him out with ow. I am starting to think that he really has found the one! Maybe it's all i'n my mind that he is actually a narc. Now I'm not so sure, maybe it was just me that he didn't want a relationship with. I have blocked from fb but I still hear about how he has a profile picture with him kinda like liking ow cheek and he really looks into her. It brought back flashbacks of one night when we were out at a sportsbar how I reached out to kiss him and my tongue was out his sister had taken a picture and the look on his face looked horrified he had a gross look on his face but his new fb pic shows how he seems to be into her! So maybe he just never saw me that way or even felt the way he does for her and he treated me poorly all those years but now he is found his love of his life at 38 wow that's great I should be happy for him right if I really loved him and I should let him go but why after 8 months I'm still hurting is it the lack of validation? The nonclosure part or is it just that he isn't a narc and he really loves her but then why did he use me cheat and lie and I was a great friend and person or should o day I am how can everyone see it but he never saw ME! I'm sorry I'm crying because he would put my down and he praises her! I want him to get out of my head all I ever wanted was his heart but the ow is claiming she does and she thinks she is better than me! I am so confused !
I am worth it he didn't
Lost Love
torture.
Lost love
Lost love