no contact 7th week

i finally had done it. i stopped all contact with narcissus.

was writing him on facebook after we had a blowout fight, still trying to get some kind of.. information from him about WHY. i'd been doing a lot of work on myself the last couple of months prior to this and building up to leaving. in his reply he wrote the same things he's always said, giving me nothing. said he "wasn't himself" and would "tell me more later." my friend laughs about that, "are you ever yourself?" because that's the lame excuse he has strung me along with for 2 years.

he's never himself, he's always going to explain it to me in the future. he'd used me once, for a year, then returned after half a year of not speaking to me, as if *i* had done something wrong, when his ex broke up with him, to do it again. so this time around, after much building up, as soon as i read those lines, "i'm just not myself right now." i knew i was done. they worked on me in the past but this time my brain instantly translated the words on the screen to "i'm lying to you." and i blocked him off every avenue of contacting me.

he was instantly courting new supply. excessively. guess he was having a meltdown. my friend tells me he has added damn near every woman on his friend list on FB, and women on his girlfriend's list, women he's never even met. and it's the same old behavior, "liking" every photo, flattering them, etc.

i've always had an inkling that he had a personality disorder, but did not start reading about narcissism until after getting out. it's amazing how their behavior is predictable and nearly all the same, no matter what personal variations there are.

i'm still so exhausted.