Newtothis' Story

It has been two weeks to the day my N threw me out. It is amazing to me how similiar my story is to others I have read about on this site. He was my first boyfriend when I was 19, now 19 years later he finds me and lays on on a heavy dose of charm. That's all it took, He had convinced me that we were always meant to be together and life had just passed us by. He was married with kids(should have been first red flag), but was willing to leave them to be with me because I was his ONE TRUE LOVE. Needless to say, I allowed him to move in with me after he left his wife in another state. He promised he would get a divorce, that i just need to be patient with the situation. This is where the horror begins, 8 months of break ups/make ups, he is a drug addict, slowly but surely he begins to strip me of my self esteem. Each time I left i was sucked back into the relationship by his promises and heart felt love for me. All along he was stringing his wife along as she was financially supporting him the entire 8 months. I can't believe I was willing to put up with this nonsense, and he was able to somehow convince me I meant more to hiom than anything in the world. So I move with him to another state to start our "new" life together, now I realize it was just to get me away from friends and family who were trying to open my eyes to what a bad person he was. I was convinced that despite everything, HE not them had my best interest at heart. So i quit my job, left everything and went with him.The nightmare continued, even got worse of course because he had all of the control. I was now no longer myself, all that remained was a hollow shell of a person. I had to completely rely on him for everything and my thoughts were consumed by him. Everyday I walked on eggshells, not wanting to upset him or create drama. Then despite all my efforts to please him, one day he tells me I need to move out and gives me money to take the next greyhound. He claims he wants his wife and kids back. I am stunned, not sure what just happened. He is cold and shows no emotion, just matter of fact. I have to leave my dog with him, he claims he will send my dog to me. I leave the same day, didn't have much choice. I get a text a couple days later that my dog bit someone and he is at the animal shelter in quarintine, and if he is not claimed in 10 days he will be put down. I don't know anyone in this town and he refuses to claim my dog, so my beloved dog gets put down. He is a heartless bastard!!! So now it has been 2 weeks since he threw me out and I have have so many emotions. Well, that is my story....