Need Support. What's The Deal With Me? I Don't Get It.
Need Support. What's The Deal With Me? I Don't Get It.
Ever since xnh D&D'd, and we divorced, I seem to have a steady stream of disasters happening in my life. It's not that I think he was actually a "good luck charm" or anything. He made my life Hell for years, and so did his hideous P daughter. Xnh's leaving has improved my life in so many ways. Overall, I'm MUCH less stressed daily, more content, and I have several chronic health problems that have improved immensely. I sincerely feel that getting xnh and his hideous P daughter out of my life was a really GOOD thing for me.
However, since xnh cheated on me and D&D'd 10 months ago, I have had a steady stream of catastrophes happen to me. I'm starting wonder what's the deal? I feel like I have some weird sh*t demon following me around that causes disasters in my life, and then it lets me start recovering just enough that I think maybe things are turning for the better...and then it kicks my feet out from under me with another disaster. Maybe this is all just coincidence, but it's way beyond old. Even my own mother says that this is all stuff that happens in regular life...it just doesn't usually all happen one right after another and to the same person repeatedly.
In the past 10 months:
- After xnh dumped me, I immediately had two very large flare-ups of an autoimmune problem.
- It rained here enough to float Noah's Ark, and the weeds on my property grew up to the eaves on my house (literally). I live in a desert. This does not normally happen.
- I sprained one wrist, and fractured ribs fighting with the mower knocking them down.
- My one dog promptly got cancer (three times) right after xnh moved out, and needed surgery all three times.
- My other dog fell into a sinkhole and hurt his shoulder requiring the vet.
- While walking my dogs the ground collapsed and I very badly broke my ankle. I spend 11 weeks in a cast, and couldn't drive my car because it was a stick shift. I had to borrow a friend's truck for 9 weeks so that I could get into work because I live really rural. It was 9 weeks after I broke my ankle until I could get into the city to trade my car for one with an automatic transmission I could drive.
- 12 days (and 364 miles) after buying a brand new car, a women texting while driving plowed into the rear of my parked car while I was inside at work. I now own a brand new car with a completely rebuilt rear end (including a new axle) from all the damage.
- Xnh got spiteful because I'd changed the locks on my house, and he couldn't just wander in any longer whenever he wished. He pulled some bungie cords off the barn roof that were holding down shingles until they could be replaced. Now so many shingles are missing from high winds that the whole barn must be re-roofed.
- Xnh has harassed me endlessly the entire 10 months. I have have to change my phone number, threaten him with the police, file three harassment complaints against him at work (we work at the same company still), and as of today, I've had to get management to relocate my office onto another floor to get away from xnh.
- This morning the office move was finished, and I'm away from xnh's proximity. Thank GOD!!! He will be reprimanded by management if he comes near my near my new work area.
So what happens to me? This morning, as I'm taking my LAST box of personal stuff that no longer fits into my new, smaller office space, I fell into a drainage culvert made of concrete because I was carrying the box (large) and didn't see it. I'm home from work right now because I've once again broken the SAME ankle that I broke last August.
My life was just starting to be a little easier for me, and I was just starting to feel positive once more. However, my evil sh*t demon is apparently back. Now I'm back to not walking my dogs again or exercise classes (part of my social interaction). No swimming laps with my friends like we'd planned this summer. No walking at lunch with my friends to watch videos at their house. I'm back to having a hard time driving anywhere because the cast is on my right foot. Right now, I think I'm feeling sorry for myself, and I'm really disgusted that, once again, things were starting to go "right" for me and I'm now faced with the hardship of many weeks in a cast again. I can't seem to win. So any ideas what's the deal with me? Does anyone else have an evil sh*t demon, or it just lucky me? lol.
I'm so sorry
Thanks Michele. I agree that
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
Yes I have had some horrible
Thanks sick of it. That's
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
There is definitely something
I totally agree. It's really
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
I agree