Need ideas for getting rid of final token from N

okay, here's the deal. i've been no contact for a bit over a month. as i have come across the gifts he has given me these past four years, i throw them away. they weren't super expensive, but at the time received they were like diamonds to me because they were from him. i remember thinking each time i would get one that i would keep it til the day i die because it was so very special. makes me so ill. anyway, it feels so empowering to throw them hard into the trash can and hear the swisshhhh of the plastic bag and thuddddddddd at the bottom of the garbage can...

i've also thrown away dumb reminders of him. poor hubs asked me why a brand new cooking ingredient was in the garbage. just goes to show what a mess this N (not hubs; hubs is a super man) sitch is.

i've thrown away the clothes i wore when i would see him. (good thing he was in another state or i'd be in my birthday suit right about now without a wardrobe.)

however, there has been one thing i have not parted with. he was the first man i loved. in college 100 years ago. okay, really 20 years ago. he gave me a piece of jewelry then. i had lost it and found it at my parents' house, by chance, right after he and i reconnected all these years later. it's so poetic isn't it? "true love" he said because i found the ring right after we started talking again. seriously makes me want to vomit. it's like these snakes have secret powers to just make stuff like that happen and down and down and down we fall.

anyway, it has been the hardest thing to let go of, but i am ready and it is a hundred percent necessary. i had big visions of throwing it off a bridge, putting it in the construction dumpster in our neighborhood, tossing it far into the ocean, all accompanied by some kind of secret ceremony in my heart, a talk with God, etc. hope that makes sense. sounds dramatic, but you know what i mean. a final sign that i was in fact DUNZO.

but then i went to see my bff out of state and fessed up to her about a lot of stuff. she didn't really get the NPD talk and i knew she wouldn't. she said i should sell the ring and give the money to charity. i liked that idea, too, because the last thing my N would do is give something away for nothing in return. and he'd never do it anonymously which makes me want to do it that way all the more.

so, girls, i feel it only fitting, since we are all this together and y'all totally get it, what should i do? i'm open to other ideas, too. i just know this is gonna be super hard for me, but once i do it, i am gonna be proud of myself, and there haven't been pretty much approximately zero of those moments in these last few years.

thanks in advance.