NC = My new life!

Hi everyone!

Just an update. Things have been going very very well for me. I have been about 2 months NC besides when I had to speak with him briefly regarding the pictures. I feel like I have so much closure. I have joined a gym. I started going to church again. I go to a youth group on Tuesdays. I have thrown myself back into school which is what I had neglected for so long. I am in therapy. I am on medicine. After my car incident wakeup call I am ridding myself of all toxic/friends people in my life. My "friend" that called me an "f-in c*nt" was blocked on facebook IMMEDIATELY and all of our mutual friends were unfriended. I will not answer his text messages. Me and Kiwi text each other all the time and have been able to be great support systems for each other. I started working at the domestic violence shelter again. For a while I felt uncomfortable working there knowing that I was experiencing my own struggle. I worked there 6 hours today and I was able to help a middle-aged woman cope with feelings she was having.

A girl in my one of my classes confided in me about being in an extremely abusive relationship and I was able to recommend her to a DV agency and help her get a restraining order. He told her that he was going to kill her and her son. She now has a restraining order for both her and her son and she told me that I saved her life.

It sounds crazy.. but I am so thankful for my experience with the psycho because I would not have been able to help these other woman. I believe God knew I was strong enough to handle this and that I would go on to help other women in similar situations.

Of course there are times when I will start to think of him and get upset. In the past I would ruminate and not be able to stop thinking about it. But now I just shake my head and throw myself into something else. He is 100% dead to me. I never thought I would have the closure that I have but I DO. I was so depressed for SO long and I didn't even realize how bad things were. Now that I'm out of the fog I am rebuilding again and it feels really, really great :)