and ofcourse I am upset with myself..
the EXN is asking around to see if I am going to this party on Saturday.
Yes I am going..
Why is it his concern? right?
He asked a mutual friend we have and she told me about it and I listened (insert NC breaking foot up my arse)
He asked my friend (which introduced me to him) is SHE going on saturday as I really want to go BUT I don't want to bump into anyone I don't want to see or feel awkward around?
She replied to him .. UM if the relationship ended in a mature way, then what is the problem? You both have the same circle of friends, if you don't bump into her on Sat you might bump into her somwhere else? WHat is the big deal?
His response was
"yeah. it was a rough time for me when i dated her. i could not live like that.. and no support whatsoever from my family. the whole divorced and 2 kids deal...so, after much stressing, i disbanded. it was best for me. she came over once, and never again. oh well. we move on. i have some things in the works. lol. i still believe my half orange is out there somewhere. do you know if she will be attending ? i obviously will try to go with someone, but i just wanted to know...i hope to see you soon. I love you very much... have a great week. "
I love it..
We broke up b/c of his mom.. SHe didn't like my 2 kids..
BUT the deal was.. that he knew ALL of that. before dating me..
AND he schmoozed my kids so much, that the DEAL is they were hurt.
you friggen morron..
IS his mom going to like the deal of him dating a married woman with 1 kid?
is that a better deal?
I know I should not care what he says..
B/c THE REAL deal is that he is LYING to people.
IS That why he wants to know if I am going? So I don't blow his ass out of the water to the new girl, that I KNOW is married b/c she was in my class?
IS that why?
so I broke NC by listening and reading this shitte
AND yes I never told this mutual about not talking about him b/c she really never has before..
I hate him.....
the one that friggen cried all the damn time, is making it now feel like we were no big deal...
and I know why they do this..b/c they have no heart, or empathy or whatever..
BUT my kids did, I did, and so did my parents that he schmoozed.
AND I will go to this party.. B/c F him...and I was going to go anyway..
and I know if really deep down inside I will feel hurt I don't have to go..
but I am not wired that way..
I am wired the other way.. I was a friggen awesome GF to an A$$... no need for me to coward away..