Narcs definitely have Psychic Radar!
Narcs definitely have Psychic Radar!
I have noticed a strange phenomenon. Every time I come to a new realization, insight and I gain more strength, the Narc contacts me.
Particularly when I post something on this forum, I gain strength from the support I receive and it strengthens my will to remain No-Contact (15 days).
He senses this, I swear! I post on this forum, like, twice a week, usually when I have gained perspective, and he always contacts me!
When he contacts me, I feel a pit of anxiety in my stomach that takes a few days to go away.
I am glad my Narc is not too bright! He says things that aggravate me and push me further away.
When he texted me last Tuesday he played the “disarm her with Flattery” cars. It was predicted by forum members that his next reaction would be rage. I feel he is attempting to elicit my sympathy.
It almost worked! He is good! He should have gone into acting as opposed to being a truck driver!!!!
I know I shouldn’t listen, but I did! He left a voicemail, sounding emotional and teary, stating the following,
” Hey R, It’s Narc speaking, I have been thinking about you aloooot lately.
I hope your safe, ok, and I hope that you are in loving arms tonight (?????!). I am praying for you, my Angell. I always will.
I know I have no reason to call and I should stop all of this shit, but the truth is, I care about you and I miss you. I have been having bad feelings about, I dunno, a lot of things. I hope that you are o.k.”.
He followed that with a text stating that his road trips (he is a truck driver) a harder these days because he is thinking about bad things from the past. He also asked me to text him just once.
I didn’t text him. Damn. He sounded so sincere. But again, he did not acknowledge the blatant abuse he put me through. He did not even scratch the surface. It was all about his feelings. Why does he think about me when he is all alone on the road and not while he is in town,
clubbing with his friends, picking up girls??!! It makes me sick! Also, why does he state that he hopes that I am in the loving arms of another??!!! WTF!!!!!
I know that you will tell me that I have to stop reading texts or listening to his voicemails. I will….soon. They are so sporadic and random.I keep thinking that he is going to give it a break. I am guilty of listening out of smugness and morbid curiosity. I know! I know!!!!
I have to fight my natural instinct to want to believe him. I like to have a record of these events, I use this forum. It helps, because when I am in denial, I re-read old posts. Some of them go 6 months back, and I can notice the same pattern over and over again.
I am moving soon. I need a change! I’m flooded with emotions, but at least I am starting to feel. I need to process this! I see things from a clearer lense than I ever have before. Thanks!
Controlling Narcs
WELL DONE FOR NOT
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Miss Lewis, how wonderful:
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Hey How could I....sounds
TNR1
Notice that when you talk
Just remember, he is thinking
Redhead1 is right
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