My Therapist Said
My Therapist Said
I had my first session with my therapist. She told me that she can fix me, but she can't fix my N. I started crying and said I would pay you anything if you could fix him.. Why can't they be helped... If I talked him into therapy would it help?
She told me to take the next week and think about what it takes to find me again. That I need to decide if I want my husband, the narc or maybe neither one. Wow! I truely don't think that i can answer that all in one week. My N consumes my every thought. She also told me to make a pros and cons list for my Narc and bring it back with me..
I asked her what to do when he contacts me again. She told me to go to the barn and spend time with my horses and truely think about whether or not I want to go up there. I told her if I don't jump when he says jump, I will be punished for it. I have to go immediately or just not at all.. I go into a total haze when he calls, I know the consequences that i can lose my husband, farm, house maybe even my job, But I am helpless and I still go... It is like its not even me..
She asked me to name some of the things that i like about him off the top of my head... All I could come up with was fun... Couldn't think of one other thing.. She said he is all about control and manipulation.. If that's the case and he wants control of me, then why does he go days and weeks without contacting me? He can't control me without contact. She also said what you all have been saying to cure an addiction you must have no contact.. I back there, with no contact but I am still very weak and vulerable...
She told me it is not me that he wants, but there is something he can gain from me. Whether it be a cash cow, my farm or just the pure thrill of spliting up my marriage.. I have thought about that and I think that it is the image of a good girl on this arm that he can flaunt to his friends. And also something stable so that he can get his daughter to come around more.. But he has admitted to wanting to split my marriage up before in a fit of rage.
What do you all think?
Sorry to lengthy,
She just has my mind really thinking
Dabussard, I think you might
Enpsych you are right on...my
I told ex N I was leaving my
Don't give up on your marriage just yet!
dabussard
Four Aces
dabussard
I think she is 100%
Choose not at all
dabussard
onwithmylife
dabussard
onwithmylife
dabussard
debussard
shaynasMommy
He is just playing games and
You deserve more
Adoette