My tears mean nothing..
My tears mean nothing..
I was not writing on this forum for longer time now. That's because i was feeling better and i tried to avoid to think about N an Narcissism in general. And imagine 2 days ago i thought to myself: "Oh I do not think of him anymore, maybe not anymore but so rarely..", I was amazed..I felt so good. And now 2 days later he came into my thoughts again..LOL...I want to be free!!!! I want to be free of thinking of him!!!
I feel like telling him: Dear N , how is it possible that to people who said to each other that they love each other so much are now separated? Are now so far away from each other?
It will be 8 full months gone since I have moved out from him. He has an OW. And YES I do know the answer to my question. The answer is he has never loved me, he never loved anybody and will never love anyone in his life. He is a N. And N is not capable of feelings like love..
Well, I had a feeling to ask him this questions on email, but i thought is better to stay NC and write here, on forum rather then making full of myself in front of him again.
I loved only once deeply and truly ..and why it must have been you N?
Ewa...you are not alone in your feelings...
Leah2